I hope everyone had a great week last week. Hopefully this one turns out even better for everyone.
Finally got around to messing with eyeliner and… I cried.
I saw myself in the mirror and I saw myself.
And I laugh-cried out of joy.
It’s so wild how something so seemingly small can be so significant.
It’s finally starting to feel real.
honestly mood. i took some really nice “selfies” of myself a couple weeks ago that i thought i looked nice in because the really cheap webcam and warm lighting softened my face super hard. looking at them now i don’t even think i look particularly femme, masc, or androgynous, but i look adorable, and the only “filter” was a 240p resolution. It really didn’t take much
Congrats!! Eyeliner can be hard to start learning but it’s really fun! And it doesn’t take much to look really femme, even just a tiny stubby wing and half your upper eye adds a lot.
I learned liquid liner cause I like big bold wings. It’s hard but if you keep doing it, you’ll get it.
Yeah! I’m starting with liquid liner and I’m sure I’ll learn it quickly enough. Thankfully my girlfriend is big into makeup so I have a bit of guidance.
Happy Monday
Friends have been using my pronouns. My family stopped using any pronouns for me. I’ll take that as a win.
I want to take T but also I haven’t come out to anyone yet and I don’t have a plan for how to do it
I already have a weird teen boy moustache without ever taking T so I’m really eager to see how powerful it will become with T
While I can’t legally tell you how to do it right now, it’s much smaller of a deal than people will have you believe. I DIY T without my family knowing and can answer questions you have here or on Discord if you want.
o.O I’m curious.
been reading about half of this “basic biology” textbook now and it’s mostly shit about what kind of animals are herbivores. when do i get to the part where it says that trans people aren’t real? i keep getting told by terfs to read this shit but i can’t figure out why
Fun basic biology fact: Took part in a bar quiz on Saturday and one round was “name the parts of the vulva” and i could just rattle off all the medical terms like introitus vaginale because of my pre bottom surgery doctor-patient-talk and the paperwork with my insurance i had to file after that and all the cis women in the team where like “wth you’re awesome how does anybody who isn’t a doctor know this”. Meanwhile another team couldn’t find the clit, got super mad about it and started complaining to the organizers.
Meanwhile another team couldn’t find the clit,
Bonus rage: There were women on that team.
That just makes me sad
oh gee, do i have some news for you about “herbivores”
Noooo animals have to fit into three neat little boxes you can’t just leave your box like that
obligate carnivore
Obligated to eat some grass motherfucker
down with cis
Thanks for the heads up, i’ve edited the post accordingly
More and more people are saying this.
gotta buy a bus
oh wow, gender envy actually hurts really fucking bad
I’m not ready yet to come out.
That’s perfectly fine and good, take it at your own pace and try to keep yourself comfortable and safe 💜
Thank you!
Recently watched a video of me from 4+ years ago and realized the closet was made of glass. Everyone in my wife’s family and many of her friends had clocked me as a gay man, but that couldn’t be because I was in a straight marriage 🤔 Everyone knew I was queer but me lol
This happen to anyone else???
Lots of love
Solidarity with my trans masc Brothers who have to bind their chest at all. I’m still not out to my family, but my boobs are getting pretty noticeable even when I wear a tight sports bra.
Had to use a bra I ordered that was way too small for me and remove the pads to make my boobs as flat as possible. Ouch. I salute you who do it for most of your day.
Just be careful as binding can damage the tissue. Sorry if you’re already aware of this.
I did not!
Got told today “May Allah cover you” by a complete stranger
Surgery really scares me as much as I want it
The transphobic ppl in my life dont understand that we go into these things fully understanding what its going to be like
Like i know recovery is going to be hard, so why are you making it harder for me instead of supporting me through it
It’s certainly exhausting, but recovery is kind of like that thing looming in the distance for so long that one day you realize is suddenly there. Of course there’s always the risks of complication, but with a good support structure everything is so much more bearable. There’s good progress to make and it’s pretty clear to see too. Scary, but very much doable!
I hope the transphobes in your life disappear one day (by whatever circumstance)
goofy bloomer posting, navelgazing
All that blogging I did about body hair last mega feels really incredibly healthy to me. Between that and realising I never identified that closely with the “woman” label, I feel extremely at peace about me rn. I value this feeling of being at peace with my body, I’ll never fucking ever take it for granted. I am zen, satisfied. Unbothered. Moisturised. Flourishing. Happy. In my lane. Not focused though 'cause lmao.
One of the problems I had was, I always knew it didn’t work like this for everybody else, but in terms of myself transition and gender were so tied up in the medical aspect, because that was the biggest change in my life then, that I couldn’t really consider it in more granularity, 'cause my stupid brain would go “if my gender changes, some physical or presentational aspect of me must also change”. Plus the fact that I’m indifferent to they/them pronouns confused my tiny mind somewhat.
I also think my sad tiny mind needed the “woman” label back then, kid me sort of clung to it for a sense of validity. It was something I could angrily assert at people if they questioned me. But now I’m a lot more chill, (cohabiting with my wife, long removed from the struggles of obtaining HRT) I’ve come far enough to decouple all that stuff in my brain, really consider it for myself, interrogate it thoroughly, and it’s made me feel a lot better. I don’t feel like such a weird, out-of-place non-trans-woman, I am content to just be a vaguely transfeminine lesbian critter and not worry about it. To look at myself and my body and realise how content I am, that it really truly brings me joy being just how I am now.
I’ve been stuck in a first aid refresher course all day with a bunch of decrepit twats from the local côr meibion who threw a fit about the gender options on the forms that were handed 'round.
I swear to God if I hear one more fucker say,
CW: transphobia
“There’s only two genders and if you’re somehow confused about what one you are, look in your trousers.”
, the class’ gonna get a live example of how to treat lacerations.
Death to cishets, etc, etc.
I’m not gonna lie, but I would be openly hostile towards these people and probably get thrown out. These fuckers need reeducated in the gulag. But I am heavily combative with this shit and probably why I’ll never have stable work.
There are not words for how badly I wanted to throw hands but, like, kicking the shit out of a couple of the old men who sing at funerals would get me a bit more than dirty looks around town so… What could I do really?
During the lunch break, the bloke administering the classes went on this rant about Vaughn Gething conspiring against whites, so I didn’t have much hope for help there either.
I didn’t mean physical assault, but rather berating them and being an asshole. Making sure they regret their life choices.
being 1 week on HRT is like sitting in the rollercoaster with the chest bar thingy over you and your seatbelt fastened but the ride hasn’t actually started yet so you’re just sitting them like “yep, big changes soon” while literally nothing perceivable is happening nor can you expect anything to for a while longer either
Give it just a tiny bit more time and the seatbelt will hurt your nipples so badly that it will become your main posting topic.
It’s excruciatingly painful lol
it’s way too fucking early to be it but my left tiddy does feel funny today
actually yeah my left arm feels like i just got an injection in it too wtf. there hasn’t been a needle in there for years
actually i’m pretty sure that i just slept on my arm funny and cut off the circulation, which does not give you bigger tits. which is a shame because if it did i’d have G cups by now
We love a good twist ending, don’t we folks
Not to excite you too too much, but breast growth can still start pretty early, I felt the pain for the first time less than a month after I started taking my E pills. (~3 weeks to be more specific). That feeling definitely isn’t it though, the actual feeling is a sharp pain the first few times.
Also for the love of god don’t wear blouses without a bra. Trust me.
The physical changes will come soon
For me the mental changes were fairly quick. Just a few weeks in.
