considering it more and more each day
tired
considering it more and more each day
finally got around to having blood work done again to check my levels, I feel like they’re pretty low for my last dose to be 1 week ago.
Anyway I asked my endo to (officially) up my dosage frequency from once every two weeks to at least once a week, and I also asked him if we could up my dose (4mg).
He agreed to increase my frequency but not my dose.
I didn’t tell him i’d already switched to once a week but now I’m trying to convince him to up my dose as well, hopefully he agrees otherwise I’m going to have to awkwardly tell him I’d been doing once a week doses for the last 1.5 months.
edit: nevermind he responded quickly basically saying not for 3-4 weeks at least, and if my levels don’t improve i’ll have to go in to get shots instead of doing it at home (which i hate because I have to make time away from work).
I really want to wear girl shorts instead of guy shorts.
Lmao i feel you, I had to buy a belt yesterday and I was mildly freaking out because I couldn’t find a cute women’s belt and had to settle for a “good enough” men’s belt.
Got around to watching I Saw the TV Glow on Saturday night.
I loved the movie, but like it wasn’t as emotionally devastating as I’d hoped it would be. Maybe I’m just busted? Idk like I definitely connected with the film on a lot of its parts/aspects. There were even certain parts of the film where I already knew what the main character was going to say before it was said.
The part on the bleachers where Tera/Maddy was asking Isabel about her sexuality hit a little too close and I literally answered “I don’t know” out loud before Isabel did.
Idk maybe I’m more emotionally locked up than I thought or maybe my expectations were too high or maybe I was just too ready to be analytical instead of just taking the movie as it comes.
I’ll re-watch it again, probably soon. I’ll definitely remember it as one of my favorite movies, I identify far too personally with the text for it to not be; I just wanted to share the connection with it that many trans people are saying they felt with it, and I’m a little disheartened that I feel like I didn’t connect in the same way that some people did.
Been praying for them to try and redeem themselves since finding out about the St. Trina/Miquella connection.
I have very low hopes though.
You’re not alone in this, I’m 6mo in and the emotional changes have been somewhat subtle. I cry more easily when i’m very stressed or when emotions are high, but my day to day hasn’t changed much at all. I did wonder if it might be because my dosage needs to be upped but I don’t actually know.
I like being trans for sure though it’s just… it’s so much work and I feel like I missed so much
I feel this so hard, I find myself constantly needing to stop myself from wallowing in my own sadness about missing out on any sort of ‘girlhood’.
And also like why does everything need to be so hard? Voice training is so garbage I just want to sound good
Settling into my new place and enjoying our backyard that the previous tenants turned into a little veggie field.
Put myself together a cute little gardening outfit from the clearance aisle (jeans were too short but otherwise perfect). My partner was gassing me up and even I sorta thought i looked cute despite not shaving for a few days.
Unfortunately my back is a fuck and I can’t work for longer than an hour or two.
The outfit was really super cute but god I’m realizing exactly how fucking much i hate my shoulders and my upper body in general. I think it’s partially because I have such messed up posture, my upper body is just so fucking wide I can’t stand it.
Also the lower half of my face is too goddamn wide. I think from a distance or in the mirror it’s not too bad but seeing myself in photos i feel so shitty, I think it’s making me really want to try for FFS asap, but I can’t afford to take time off to heal so It’s not really accessible until I get sorta financially stable.
The silver lining is that my eyes and lashes are so goddamn pretty actually. When I have my bangs properly styled I really like my face from the nose up. It’s the one thing keeping me going right now.
Signed my new lease and now i’m officially roomies with two queer people.
Also ended up with a bathroom that actually has a bathtub so I’m definitely gonna try out bath bombs at some point
their child ate one “with pink packaging”
NOT THE CARBONARA
That’s not disgusting that sounds incredible, how did I not think of that before. Maybe one could add crushed peanuts and green onions as well.
This is exactly what bothers me about these people and for me it’s especially exemplified by the one person who posted the astronaut lady with the dogs.
I posted this earlier with full metadata (sorry, I still have not gotten around to fix the poor dog’s legs 😅): Except for her companions, she is leaving everything behind…
There is just something about the image that make me want to hug her and her dogs, and assure her that everything will be all right.
Like what the fuck do you mean “There is something about the image…”
Mother fucker you supposedly created the image you’re supposed to know what it is “about the image”.
See if you can find queer meetings in your area! I know a nearby city to me has weekly trans adult meetings at one of the community centers.
my gender got retconned
I can empathize pretty strongly with wanting to distance yourself from those who wallow in or fetishize their own sadness. A few years back my friend group as a whole did a bit of restructuring because we were tired of so many things being centered on the struggles in life. It just gets exhausting, like being stuck under a cloud of negativity.
From the start of my self-discovery I’ve tried to keep the mindset of “following the joy”. There’s too many things in this life that are fucked, why does one of the most important and most personal things in my life have to be as well?
Happy pride
Moving to get away from my shitty roommate and I can not wait to get tf out of here. There’s something new with this fucking guy every goddamn day.
But my god i’d forgotten how fucking insufferable the process is. WHY does applying to places cost minimum $25? WHY do they have to see my bank balances? WHY do people have visible disdain for non-families moving in? I hate every fucking step of this.
I’m actually out of money, I had to borrow money from my partner and she’s also nearly out of money. I literally can not afford to apply to a new place for the next 3-4 days and time feels like it’s very quickly running out. I applied for a loan from my own retirement account so hopefully that makes everything go smoother but it also means I’m tied to this job that i fucking despise until i pay it off and that money’s not going to get to me for at least 3 days, maybe longer.
And there’s absolutely no guarantee that we’re even going to be accepted by anywhere we apply to. Every place I’ve gone to see has had more than just us seeing it, and it’s almost always a more “traditional family.” My partner has been very pessimistic about even finding a place during this entire process and though I’ve been trying to stay optimistic and to keep both our spirits high I’m starting to be worn down. I have options if we fail to find a place by the end of the month, but my other two potential roommates are going to be shit outta luck and I can’t have that on my conscience.
One silver lining is at least if everything goes well my new roommates will be my long-time friend’s non-binary partner, and a trans woman.
Is there some big problem with the book that makes it not actually a good book that I’m missing?
Not really, no. Unless you consider the somewhat dated language a problem (which honestly some people are going back on now), Julia Serano wrote a very very good transfeminist text. The problem with that (and my answer to your next question) is that, how often do you see transfeminists actually talked about in the mainstream or at all for that matter?
Thankfully in recent weeks, at least 3 “big” trans youtubers (Alexander Avila, Philosophy Tube, and I can’t remember the last one I saw, maybe Avelo?) have referenced Whipping Girl and Julia Serano in their videos. (Naively) Optimistically this could put a few more eyes on it which would only be a good thing.
I myself am constantly referencing the text when discussing (trans) gender politics with (cishet male) friends as well as when commenting online.
I love this book. I think about the text so often in my life. I immediately bought the paperback after I officially started coming out and could actually have physical objects relating to my transness. Before I read the book I was already sorta on the path to actually understanding intersectional feminism, but Whipping Girl cemented my resolve to really “get into” transfeminism.
I also sincerely wish more people trans or otherwise would read Whipping Girl, not just in spaces like this where we openly embrace theory, but even in less leftist spaces as well. Unfortunately in today’s day and age, getting people to read books is like pulling teeth.
Redditer 1: lol this game was meant for us my friend. I’m giggling at the downvote on my previous comment. They really are the height of irony.
there is no emoji that can sufficiently display my utter disgust for this kind of person/reddit user
I want to do this but I have to rely on him to keep my prescription refills up. I definitely could do this if i switch to DIY though.
He said it was to make sure I’m using the correct technique for injection but my partner has been doing them for me and she’s had actual classes for injection techniques (?) so I dunno what his problem is.