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hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i’ll add you to the list!
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I’ve shared so much random shit about myself on the trans mega and yet sharing my oc’s is still incredibly nerve-wracking
About a month ago, I told my wife she can use he/she/they pronouns for me.
She pretty much exclusively uses she/her and calls me her wife.
Chat, what does this mean?
Farewell, eyeliner. I’ll miss you
i don’t care, i’ll inject the whole fucking vial. this shit ain’t nothing to me, man
Just finished listing an inordinate amount of my personal belongings on eBay. I forgot how long it takes even if I just leave a couple sentences of description. Gods that was mind numbing. Well, at least I’ll have more money to financially stabilize my family and/or pay for my surgery here in a couple months. Or maybe get some more plastic crack in the form of more Rubrics. Look, I need a third squad of them. No I don’t need to explain myself, I just do.
damn that girl in the mirror is starting to get an ass, god damn
CW: DIY, PTSD
update on me
spoiler
partner starts new job tomarrow. of course something in the house broke recently but assuming she has steady decent paychecks i can finally get some girl juice and start this thang
still going DIY route just seems safer as far as being on lists but maybe not for medical reasons. still have the option to go the route my co-worker went or contact my ex from high school who is a social worker that helps trans people connect with medical resources. we broke up nearly 2 decades ago and i think im the reason she went into that field so i’m sure she’d be delighted to help
still feel like im making up excuses sometimes but i do have some legit fears i need to overcome first that are rooted in some PTSD stuff
I tried making air fried beer donuts and ended up making beer biscuits instead, think it was because I forgot to add butter. Softest biscuits ever, at least I have that going for me.
Having a lot of gender thoughts and stuff about sexuality and hegemonic cis/heteronormative reinforcement as a factor in the social reproduction of the labor force, how that has shifted in the US since WW2 from Keynesianism to neoliberalism alongside the womens’ liberation and gay rights movements in the 60s and 70s, how trans rights became more visible in mainstream culture after the 2008 crash and overtook gay marriage as the favorite reactionary backlash target in the US after the Obergefell decision, tepid liberal co-opting of radical movements, pinkwashing and rainbow capitalism’s relation to HR department culture and the discourse over the character of the PMC as a distinct subclass, reactionary backlash to nebulous “wokeness” and what if any material basis that has in economic relations or social reproduction, and so on and so on…
But I’m really eepy and don’t wanna try writing a long thing on a phone keyboard and I feel like I need to read more theory and try to flesh out what I’m cooking up more
dysphoria
Today has been very iffy for me, then I talked for a little bit and holy shit my voice is awful. Feel really sad about it now. I’ve never done any voice training, no clue when I’ll actually start.
Also the hair on my arms is starting to come back, little black stubs right now. Egh.
At least the really bad thoughts/fantasies are gone right now, those are always really upsetting.
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Ok. Let me share a few more portraits with you all before I
sleepdo my schoolwork:New and (maybe) Improved
And one of the main characters:
I don’t quite know how to feel about it, and I was running out of time tonight, so these ones are probably more subject to change. I’m not sure if I want to go with that face, or that hair, or those colors to be honest. I just picked something and went with it. I think I still like my first character better, though maybe it’s because she felt easier to design.
Edit: I think the gray color scheme is bothering me, I might have to change it to some sort of color, though I have no idea what. My brain does not process these kinds of things well (I’m not colorblind). Maybe I just need to read some (color) theory, that might help.
Never seen the trans mega post so hard on sunday night tbh.