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Your life, physical and then professional were both threatened. The things you mentioned aren’t little oopsies. These are well beyond normal. You describe being assaulted and abused. Those aren’t suck it up and learn situations. That isn’t a regular kind of problem. You should seek trauma counseling.

Revenge usually does the trick.

I really struggle with this, too. If I have a nasty confrontation with someone, it can eat at me for days. Sometimes weeks. Logically I know I’m being foolish. Emotions are tough, though, and not logical.

Sometimes venting about it with a supportive friend or family member can really help. Hearing someone else validate your feelings can help you move on.

Distraction also works. I try to immerse myself in a book, movie, game, whatever. If I can forget the incident for a while, it has far less power the next time I think about it. Laughing about how dumb and petty it was can totally disarm it. Once you get to that place.

Therapy can help with this sort of stuff, too. But therapy is expensive. And I think most therapists have better things to tackle than some petty dispute I had with a coworker or neighbor.

The worst ones for me are the situations where I was the bad guy. Or I was the idiot who ended up getting myself hurt through my own bad decisions. One of those still haunts me, over 30 years later. I can forget about it, sometimes for years, but then it will pop back up in some way. I think it’s just, unfortunately, part of being human.

Try not to beat yourself up over these lingering thoughts. Everyone has them to some degree. Learning to let go of such baggage is a life skill that takes constant practice.

Experience all the emotions dude

You’re allowed to let those emotions flow through you. Yell and hit something inanimate if your mad. Cry if your sad. Let those thoughts come. And then let those emotions go

All those bad times were lessons you had to learn one way or another. Those lessons should hopefully help you never make those same mistakes or hang around those types of people. Life teaches the hard way unfortunately

But yeah, I used to repress my emotions cause that’s what a big football player is supposed to do. I had to be a rock and no matter what just bottle it all up. But I’ve been able to be a better rock for others by letting myself cry it out when I need to.

Lastly, I wouldn’t say I forgave all those who have wronged me. Nor have I forgotten. But I guess it’s like a really good song I just heard. The first dozen or so times I listen to it I’m completely focused and the song just sounds diffrent cause it’s fresh in my mind or whatever. But then I let the song play a bunch, maybe even twice in a row here and there cause I’m so focused on it. But then one day the song just isn’t a good for some reason. It’s kinda like that but with shitty situations.

Idk I’m not a therapist lol

Allowing yourself to feel your emotions without care.

There’s nothing wrong with being angry at people who hurt you. You’re kind of supposed to be; that’s what anger is for.

It’s not unhealthy or imprudent or a negative in any wat regardless of what anyone else told you, or society. There’s literally nothing wrong with it and people who tell you there is are being deeply unethical and usually have a political agenda. Ignore them.

Be angry, be sad, be fearful, cry, and be free.

Also you need to do something to hold those scumbags accountable, especially the landlord who tried to run you over. What the fuck? Didn’t you call the cops?

Write a long thorough letter that you don’t send. It worked for me with a friend who was awful to me for a year. Beauty think about him anymore.

From “Verissimus”, a comic about the Stoic philosopher and Roman Emperor, Marcus Aurelius: https://imgur.com/a/FlvGJGT (my apologies for the first two pages being out of order).

There is a section about the Greek philosopher, Epictetus’, teachings about anger. My favorite two are “Being unlike your enemies is the best form of revenge,” and “Goodwill is a virtue, the opposite of revenge, the desire to help rather than harm our fellow man. So replace your anger with its antidote: kindness.”

I had to do cognitive behavioral therapy to defeat cycles much like that. Fortunately, if you’re not in a position to have a professional help you with that, it can be self practiced. The biggest take away is allowing yourself time to process it, so it doesn’t occupy your mind when you’re trying to do something important like driving or sleeping. Write out the angry thoughts and reflect on them, why its impractical and how you’re putting yourself at risk for little to no gain. Match each negative thought with something positive if you can help it. Sure this person fucked you over, but you got to play a cool game with a buddy. They don’t need to be connected but try to force yourself to spend equal or greater time on good experiences as much as your mind is trying to drag you into the gutters. Regret is one of the more powerful emotions you’ll experience and you don’t need to cause yourself unnecessary burdens. If you feel you’re a risk to yourself or others, please seek out professional help. This isn’t medical advice, just myself reflecting on my own experiences. I’m told this service is pretty decent. https://www.betterhelp.com/

Do you have a release for emotions period? Burn out the anger with a crazy workout and intense playlist. Write about it poetry style or otherwise. Buy a punching bag.

Although I am an atheist, if I am wrong, I am fairly certain they are going to hell.

Thinking about what hurt them. Being glad I am not them. That’s about it, really. I guess also in these particular situations you can be glad you don’t work/live there anymore, would you really want to be there if the boss was treating your coworker that way?

It’s quite rational for you to feel angry towards people who seemingly went out of their way to wrong you. One thing that helps me is contemplating the inner existence of that type of person. It must be awful to walk around without a teaspoon of empathy. To walk around disconnected from basic humanity. To find pleasure in hurting others. What a cold existence.

Try some self parenting. If you were four years old, what would you want the best parent to say to you if they learned that you were thinking of this?

Said another way, what would you tell your kid if they were dwelling on something like this?

When I first got going in law I had a judge lay into me one day and I left there questioning all my life choices. I realized the dude didn’t know but a small part of my life, was not and could not make any real judgments about who or what I am, and the guy is probably an asshole to his family and his kids hate him.

people who hurt me in the past

The pain is inside you now.

Not in them. You can’t give it back to them.

Even the best revenge (if you are maybe thinking about revenge) is not going to relieve the pain inside you - it would only create new, additional pain.

Forgiving is the way to go. And I’m not saying that it is easy, just saying that it is the way to go. Forgiving means to let them go free. Give up any wish for revenge. Decide that you are not going to bring it up against them anymore. Ever. Let go of the bad thoughts and then you can let go of the bad feelings too.

Make sure that you know (maybe tell someone, or write it down in a long letter that does not need to be sent) all of it when you try to forgive. It means, when you decide to let go, you rethink (only this one time) all that has happened and all the feelings it has caused - especially for this purpose of letting it go. And then you can let go.

And then this will set you free.