Short version, I wanna change my names (first and middle two) sometime this year to something more audibly enby. I have a bunch of stuff I think sounds neat, but is that all it needs?
Like it feels fake at some level, or like an affectation. I don’t know what names resonate with me or if they’re even supposed to. I feel like this is a common experience so maybe I could get some advice?
I do want names that stand out, but also ones that don’t make me sound full of myself, but…also need something that resonates with me and I’m so confused and lost 
So far my only inkling of an alternative name is just a feminized version of my name I used in Pokemon long ago.
I don’t think a name needs to be that important personally. I personally fond of not using a name though (granted I’ve only done that once with someone I saw regularly - never was a problem, but we didn’t have any outside connections whom I would need some sort of convenient identifier for).
Honestly agree. It’s good to have some attachment to a name, but the significance of the name can be pretty bare-bones and the attachment can come over time.
This is how I’d predict that would go:
Month 1: “Yeah, this was just some thing I went to last month with… You know, the one without a name, that person. So anyways, they were…”
Month 2: “So, the one without a name was here the other day…”
Month 3: [writing in a notebook] “Gift ideas for T.O.W.A.N.”
Month 4: [texting] “but i don’t think towan would like that…”
Month 5: “Hey have you seen Towan around?”