Playing that game (AuDHD or Trans), and all of the examples can be explained away as AuDHD, and none of the obv. trans examples fit. Really hits that… imposter syndrome? That “Not trans™”
But here’s the thing… only trans people are worried about if they are actually transgender! A cisgender person does not have this obsession with their identity: they think about it, they process it, they move on. If you keep returning to these thoughts over and over again, this is your brain telling you that you took a wrong turn
Everything is either “I don’t know, I can’t feel my feelings, I’ve chalked this problem up to autism”, or it’s “that’s just autism”. The latter fitting this line:
That’s another problem with gender dysphoria: early on, you can come up with an alternate explanation for almost every symptom
One sticking point I come across a lot when I talk to questioning trans women is that they’ve paralyzed themselves with fear and are unwilling to act until they’ve solved the equation at the center of themselves and completely and fully accepted that they are, without a doubt, 100% trans.
To that end, it’s worth keeping in mind that you are not a puzzle to be solved
I’m not saying you have OCD, but I think I have OCD and I know some people with OCD irrationally repeatedly question their sexuality or whatever more as intrusive thoughts than real feelings. People obsess about a wide range of things and I imagine gender could be one of them.
I personally don’t think I have that sort of gender OCD, I’m sure I’m nonbinary, but I do obsess about things related to gender.
Re personally: I have a lot of intrusive thoughts about the dysphoria I’d feel if I looked like other people around me, despite not feeling much dysphoria about myself. I’m currently way over thinking whether I want to continue hrt.
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Playing that game (AuDHD or Trans), and all of the examples can be explained away as AuDHD, and none of the obv. trans examples fit. Really hits that… imposter syndrome? That “Not trans™”
I KNOW. But telling me doesn’t fucking work.
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Everything is either “I don’t know, I can’t feel my feelings, I’ve chalked this problem up to autism”, or it’s “that’s just autism”. The latter fitting this line:
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I didn’t have emotions before and got some upon losing T btw.
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Chuckles and teary eyes.
Or maybe it’s just OCD…
Maybe its just OCD?
I’m not saying you have OCD, but I think I have OCD and I know some people with OCD irrationally repeatedly question their sexuality or whatever more as intrusive thoughts than real feelings. People obsess about a wide range of things and I imagine gender could be one of them.
I personally don’t think I have that sort of gender OCD, I’m sure I’m nonbinary, but I do obsess about things related to gender.
Re personally: I have a lot of intrusive thoughts about the dysphoria I’d feel if I looked like other people around me, despite not feeling much dysphoria about myself. I’m currently way over thinking whether I want to continue hrt.