Well, today I had a panic attack (at least I think?), after imagining my ex-partner suddenly visiting me, but else it’s just the feeling of nothingness as the days fly by.

But, are those small periods of “good feelings” getting at least a bit longer?

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I’m not depressed, but that’s so relatable. My day has been pretty good, and I was having a pretty nice and chill evening when all of a sudden I just burst out crying. That kind of put a dampener on things. Sure I have days where I’m a bit down, or where I have this looming sense of dread, but I don’t think I’ve ever spontaneously started crying before.

As long as you aren’t destroying your body or hurting others it doesn’t matter why you are happy. Pills or not just do/use what makes you happy.